I'm like a bird, i can fly away

Sometimes

I wonder

What flying feels like

I analyze the overpass

and think

it could be exhilerating

Soar through the sky

close my eyes

be back with those

i love

Imagine

the hardest

thing

you've ever done

For me

that thing

is living

Women complain

of smile lines

Not me

because

i barely smile

Letting myself

feel joy

is like forcing

a stake

in frozen ground

It can be done

with pressure

It take's a while

but

it can be done

I crave

a break

Like a kit-kat

Give me

a break

Often

my eyes

are heavy

I think

about sleep

All day

I just

want sleep

The problem is

i never

find time

to sleep

I truly feel so tired. Not the kind of tired that a nap can fix. The kind of tired where just existing is too much.

Living is becoming so heavy, my body can't support it.

But i treak on

continue to survive

push to thrive

find joy

in the things i can

in the people, places, things

i love

and for those people, places, things

i am so grateful

they give me

purpose

meaning

reason